{one of those days}

Today I'm having a feel sorry for myself kinda of day...

I've reached 29 weeks in pregnancy today! Down from the 31 I truly think I should be at!

I'm happy with the weekly reports and updates on the little one, and they truly keep me going but I'm feeling extremely frustrated!

At work I'm seeming to explain myself over and over again that I'm:

A) not 19!!! I wish I was, but I'm far off from it! - meaning customers give me this shocked face when they see I'm pregnant and constantly say, " you look like you just graduated high school! You can't be having a baby! " then I proceed to tell them this is my third, and they look at me like I'm for sure a teen mom who just keeps on reproducing over and over again! With a look of disgust!

B) this is not my first so I don't need to hear congratulations a million times a day! Especially from high school Korean boys! What's with that??

C) I don't want to hear anymore that I'm having a boy! And the only reason of this would be because it's the year of the dragon... Or alligator, or whatever the calendar says this year will be magical for! We knows it's a girl, and I'm beyond thrilled!

All in all.. Having to repeat myself thirty times a day with this conversation is getting old, and I really don't want to work tomorrow!

Not only is this bad... Having to get out of sweats for work is starting to bum me out... The constant reminder that nothing fits is beyond annoying! I typically gain 60+ lbs.. Only being around the 25-30 mark at seven months just shows I have another 30 to go, and honestly.. My underwear is already leaving red marks on my hips! And buying clothes isn't really an option as this is my last!! VV probably won't even have what I need! Ugh.

I'm at the point of realization this is indeed my last and am worried I may not get to do all the fun things I've never done before! I've never had maternity photos, I've never had newborn photos.. And I don't want to miss out on these things either! But finding the time and money to arrange for them seems to be a task on their own!

And lastly.. I'm really realizing I have zero patience left for my kids.. An this hurts. I don't want to be this way but I'm finding it hard to change! I'm very overwhelmed with everything these days.. And don't know how to fix it......

Thx ladies. There's my rant.